6/28/2005
Would anyone just tell me what is wrong with me?

No need for explanations. I got it. And then suddenly I felt like I was insulting people along the way. No wonder I have (probably) earned a lot of raised eyebrows from you, my blockmates.

By now I'm so conscious about what I shouldn't do I end up doing nothing or everything. This is real conflict, I tell you.

I actually think nothing will work if you think differently about me. Like, who the hell thinks I'm gay? I may be noisy, yes, but that doesn't necessarily mean I am homosexual. I'm just being funny - maybe too funny, or too effective to make you guys think I am one.

I'm trying not to be too much of a presence. I am not feeling good, actually. I think I already said that, but I just wanted to stress it, so that I'll do sufficient release and make myself feel better. But the problem is, the opposite happens.

So maybe I'll try not to be responsible, just to be close to you guys. I've long wanted to shake off that nerdy image.

So what's wrong with being good?

Oh, so you don't like it?

I may be wrong but the time might come when you guys will lose me for good.

(I'm really sorry if I'm getting angrier over this matter. No, really. I don't know what you guys really want from me. And, you guys don't even respond. How the heck am I supposed to change when there's no encouragement? All you probably care about are your other lives and what you already got into. I'm sorry if I'm bitter... but I'm this close to freaking out.)

Back to the original issue. I realized I put it all wrongly. I'm sorry. Sorry, sorry, sorry. I shouldn't have said it that way. I was too excited, perhaps Tell me when I'm getting too far, and I'll stop before you can say "autistic".

If you're clueless about what I'm talking about, then use your scroll bars. Really. I just realized my blog isn't sounding much like the happy and senseless one it used to be in high school.

And your responses...

hei niko..
ang sad mo naman..we need you..
who the hell ba is that guy who thinks you're gay??no, niko's not..
awayin natin yun!!!
promise, a big thanks to you kasi we're updated sa lahat ng nangyayari sa paligid2 noh..slamat niko!!! n_n

Anonymous cLarEncE6/28/2005     

uii niko... what's wrong? im hir if yah need a friend.. :)

Anonymous kizia6/28/2005     

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